What is my mistake in this? I try to be good and kind to everyone, then why do some people hurt me so badly? Why is my heart injured and broken for literally no fault of mine? And this is not the first time...it keeps happening again and again. How can some people be so cruel and selfish?
As she felt lost within the tangled web of questions, her eyes fell on the mirror. She hated the sight. Red, swollen eyes. Runny nose. Dark lines under her eyes. Messy tresses drenched with tears.
She wiped her tears and looked into the mirror again. She grabbed a rubber hand and tied her hair. Now the sight did not disturb her as much as it did a few minutes back. She touched the dark circles that were accumulated due to loss of sleep for almost a week. Her eyes looked tired due to severe crying. There were marks of nails on her cheeks that she inflicted on herself. When the pain in her heart became too excessive for her to tame, she tried to cause physical pain to herself, in vain.
What have I done to myself? Here, I am crying because some people I loved, have deeply wounded me. But was I kind to myself?
The more she looked at her in the mirror, the more she realized how cruel she had been to herself, for no fault of hers. She took some face wash in her hand and washed her face thoroughly. Instead of sitting on the cold floor, she went to her bed. She covered herself with the blanket and took a deep sigh.
I can't control people's behavior towards me. Some people can be cruel and selfish. Some people can be insensitive or manipulative. But I promise that from this moment on, I won't be cruel to myself. From this moment on, I won't inflict myself with pain and conflict. From this moment on, it is my first responsibility to take care of myself so that I can battle with the wounds given to me by others. From this moment on, I will treat myself with kindness, care, forgiveness, compassion and love. I will be there for myself as a friend, always.
P.S. Especially wrote this post because one of my close friends is going through a bad phase. I hope the message reaches out to her and she gets encouraged to love herself with all she has.
Hope see gets out of the situation soon...we all should love ourselves!
ReplyDeleteYes, we must.
DeleteThanks for sending the good wishes :)
Best wishes for your friend..
ReplyDeleteA lovely post radiating positivity!
Thank you so much for the lovely words :)
DeleteThat is the key word..... I won't be cruel to myself.
ReplyDeleteExactly! You got it right :)
DeleteWhen we're down, we should all make these (positive) notes to ourselves.
ReplyDeleteLovely message, Purba.
Sending some well-wishes for your friend.
I totally agree with you. Thank you so much Divya for sending the good wishes :)
DeleteWell, it's true we cannot control other people's behavior towards us. But, what we can control is our own behavior towards ourself. It was nice to read your message, Purba. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteExactly. We have only the power to control our behavior.
DeleteThanks Kishor :)
It's amazing how life gives us an opportunity to learn and grow every moment... sometimes by breaking the shell of our pains, we are taught the true ways to living a more healthier life rich in happiness and contentment. Such a positive uplifting dedication for your friend dear Purba, I am sure she is already feeling better for the good vibes that you and all the others here have sent to her.
ReplyDeleteI loved reading your profound insights on life, Arti. Thanks for this beautiful and soulful comment. I totally agree with you. Life teaches us to grow every moment through a variety of experiences :)
DeleteI hope you friend will get the strength and courage to pass through this phase.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sending the good wishes :)
DeleteVery beautiful and inspiring tale, Purba. Hope the message gets absorbed within your friend for whom you have written it.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Ravish. Glad you liked it :)
DeleteAll the wishes for the girl!!
ReplyDeleteHugs to u dear !!
Thank you dear for sending the good wishes :) <3
DeleteBest wishes for the girl..
ReplyDeleteThanks for sending the good wishes dear :)
DeleteAwesome message Purba... Good luck and love to your friend, darling :-) xx
ReplyDeleteThank you so much dear. Much love <3
DeleteVery positive message here. Well written.
ReplyDelete"But was I kind to myself?" Superb insights in this story. Young lady, you are sure on the right path to a life of happiness and fulfillment...
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Rajeev for the encouraging words :)
DeleteIt happens so often that we forget to treat ourselves kindly. This story is a gentle reminder.
May your message reach to your friend and to hundreds of such girls who are going through the similar phase in their lives too. This is such a heart warming post,written with a noble purpose.
ReplyDeleteYou always amaze me with your insight and maturity at such a young age. God bless you child. Keep up your good work. :) <3
It's so wonderful to see you on my blog each time, Ma'am. The way you encourage me with your comments make me feel so humbled and encouraged.
DeleteI also hope that this message reaches to all the girls, who forget to see their self-worth. Self-love and self-kindness are so important to battle the wounds inflicted by others.
Thanks for this lovely comment. Much love <3
Beautiful. Feel for the girl
ReplyDeleteThank you, Tirtha :)
DeleteLife is a teacher.. so many experiences.. well written :)
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Rightly said, Ananya. Thank you dear :)
DeleteA great message put across so effectively- love yourself!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Priyanka :)
DeleteWell written Purba, am so touched by this one. This is far more than a post.
ReplyDeleteWhen we are deeply down, our own heart beat haunts us. I hope the targeted person reads this and feels comforted and strengthened.
What is in this post will help many out there. This one speaking about self respect and self love, which is much needed.
Each and every word is comforting with truth. This is the deliverance for those trapped souls in distress.
Thank you for sharing Purba.
Thank you so much, Prasanna for this wonderful comment.
DeleteYou are so right. When we are hurt, we feel so down and low that we forget to apply logic. We keep torturing ourselves with less sleep, overthinking and poor diet. At those times, we need to remind ourselves that if we don't love ourselves and if we are not kind to ourselves, we cannot expect others to do the same.
Thanks once again :)
What a heart touching post, Purba. You are the kind of friend everyone needs.
ReplyDeleteAww...this is like the most wonderful thing to hear. Thank you Ma'am :)
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ReplyDeleteTOUCHED MY HEART,Written for me,referred by PRASANNA DASARI
ReplyDeleteI am so glad to know that you read and liked the post dear :)
DeleteMuch love <3
Wrenching story, Purba! Hope she gets out of the rough patch she's stuck in!
ReplyDeleteThank you Rakesh :)
DeleteHi Purba di,
ReplyDeleteThoughts like this occur to me when I am deeply hurt or sad. I tell myself to move on the next moment and must say, it really really helps....if we can just control our emotions.
May your friend overcome the hard phase of life.
Thanks much for participating!
I totally agree with you dear. If we can keep control on our mind, we can easily battle such thoughts. Thanks for sending the good wishes :)
DeleteA very heartwarming post written with a benevolent heart dear. I sincerely wish and pray your friend comes out of this difficult phase real soon. Amen.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much dear for sending the good wishes. Glad you liked the post :)
DeleteI wish best for your friend!
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely beautifully narrated, Purba:)
Thank you so much, Sir :)
DeleteWe all need that positivityin our life. After all life throws us endless possibilities. Hope your friend gets this message and will be fine soon. Good read, Purba. :)
ReplyDeleteTotally agree with you, Meera. Thanks for sending the good wishes :)
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